Ugh

Its the only way to describe this run today.

Time: 43:25

Well Sunday I set the tone with my first mile being around 6:45 and felt good the entire way through. Today started out and went about 7:30-40s and I knew that I did not feel that good obviously the first mile sets my tone for the rest of the run. I had a nice run planned out would have taken me about 45 min but then I did not feel it at all so I decided to trim it up a bit and run about a 35 min run and that did not work out so good. I went up my road and then took the left out to 43. Then took that up Gettle and then cut the corner so I did not have to go all the way out to Jiffy. Then came back in the wind. Was about 25 minutes there and I already felt like I was not good. Took that all the way back to my road and took a left and then up my street to my house. Just did not feel good at all. I felt like I was out of rhythmn and I just could not get in tune with my body at all. Felt like I was jerky and I kept checking my turnover like I always do and that was still the usual. It might be cuz I did not run yesterday but I dont know. Just felt out of sorts I cant even explain hence the title. Once I knew I was not feeling so hot I made sure I did not make attempts to go faster so that I was to be all over the place and feel terrible while trying to go faster. Felt I needed to be mature and just run. At times I felt like I was just shuffling my feet. I dont know cant explain. First day I felt like my legs were just not under me and my cardio was fine. Normally its the other way around that slows me down. Just was an off day but it happens. Kinda got hot toward the end but still didnt bother me.

Plus got that email from Greg this morning. I am in absolutely shock to say the least. I feel like I want to do something to have him come back but I dont know. I want the four of us Rob, Alex, Tim, and me to make him proud and show him where we started and how we end up becuz of him. I just feel like I wanna not let him down and show him we were the turning point and the foundation and pull through with his trust and belief in us. I am almost kinda heartbroken I guess becuz he helped me pick this college. I came to him a couple of times and visited him and he made me want to be here and it was just always so great to talk to him. No matter what he was always there to talk to. He really had a huge impact on me picking New Paltz and that isnt going to change. I learned a lot from him and all this with just one year under my belt. I just really wish there was something I could do....